a cock in that arse...

Hi - I have alsways been hugely impressed by your sites and philosphies and often wondered about seeking to visit.  I do have kind of a problem and wonder whether you feel that you might be able to help. I am 47 and only fairly recently discovered the pleasure that is to be had from being with men but i am left rather hurt and frustrated by the fact I have never really experienced pleasure from being fucked.  I sometimes catch glimpses of the pleasure to be had from a cock in the arse and am very much up for bondage and a bit of mild domination and pain but somehow when it comes to being fucked it is not comfortable and pretty unfulfilling.  i am pretty sure this is due to a lack of experience and relaxation on my part and perhaps over eagerness and lack of sensitivity on the part of my partners so far.  I am absolutely sure that a more sympathetic experience would produce the kind of pleasure and fulfilment I am looking for.  I can imagine myself tied in a sling chair and gently but firmly taken in hand by an expert and really shown what a man can do.  Might you be able to help me with this? Brian