repressed cock memories

repressed memories ?

I'm mid 50's now, and for 30 years I've lived with the same situation. Real lust for cock - suck it, deep throat it, take it in the bum. I want all of that and yet I'm happily married. I used to think it was just when I had a drink or a joint until I met a guy on the internet who is the same as both of us. And I'm lusting for his cock even though I'm stone cold sober. I once went with a guy - 25 years ago - and chickened out just like you have done. Now I've met this guy the memories are coming flooding back - repressed memories - I've been thinking I get the urge just occasionally, but the memories that have returned are telling me that I've always had men on my mind. I don't know how we're going to meet but I am intent on meeting him - I have to do this once or I will end up going to my grave regretting that I don't know what it's like to have a man inside me. Bite the bullet, find someone in a similar situation, and be gentle with each other. My guy says he'll be slow tender and gentle - he's better. He's 9 inches! And boy, am I looking forward to that Martyn

I have been looking for someone to help me realize my interests in what I call ritual sex worship for a long time. I am a 54 year old male artist. I have always been interested in sex as a ritualized expression of worship. Over the years I have met some people who are like minded, but I can't say I have ever been comfortable with anyone else's creativity, imagination, or interests in sex worship enough to let myself open up and tell all, and experience as much as I feel I need and want to. after reading as much of your site as I think exists I am amazed to find how many different things you mention that I seek and make strong connection to...for example...my first impulse even when I was young regarding another man was in worshipping cock physically, symbolically etc... therefore I have always believed in totally focusing on his organ and in developing a sense of sexual pleasure in myself that did not center in my cock, but in my whole body, especially my nipples, my mouth and throat and my anus etc, so that I didn't get into masturbating myself while cock worshipping...or focusing on my orgasm etc...in fact....i taught myself to create a separate sense of what an orgasm is for a cockworshipper...etc...a few years ago I started realizing that there is some kind of anal orgasm that is very different that an ejacualation...and that can have a sense of approximation to pussy orgasms...and i guess that is when I suddenly began to feel the desire to worship pussy as well as cock, and to service a woman completely until she has completed her need to orgasm...and i suppose that it wouldn't suprise you that somewhere along that line the idea of experiencing a complete anal orgasm in the presence of a woman, particularly without penile arousal made me begin to question if anyone else on the planet would get this.