Even if you don't know what you want...

I have been with two women and raised 5 children and have always known that I was a fag In my mind I tried to fight it and tried to be str8 but never got over the fact that I love men all I have to do is think about a man any man and I get horny I love to suck dick and have never been fucked in the ass but will someday let a man the right man have my virgin ass. I act str8 for the most part but can't keep my eyes off of men I love checking them out I love everything you could amagine about men all races all sizes muscular hairy smooth skinny fat short tall dirty clean creepy looking dorks nerds old men ugly there is always somthing different and new that all of a sudden will turn me on about men the way one walks or if he sees me watching when he touches or scratches his dick or ass or rubs his chest or belly I see a lot because I am always checking out men I have different fantasies with certin men like most men I want to get my face all over their bodies in their hairy chest smelling their arm pits licking thier ears sucking thier tounges licking butt holes oh my god a fat hairy ass I could spend days with my face buried in his crack and I love dick in my mouth a man sitting on top of my face with his dick in my mouth forcing me to take what ever he wants to do to in my mouth.  I found out that I loved sucking dick so much that I don't gag any more Johnny

These spiritual window-shoppers, who idly ask, 'How much is that?' Oh, I'm just looking. They handle a hundred items and put them down, shadows with no capital. What is spent is love and two eyes wet with weeping. But these walk into a shop, and their whole lives pass suddenly in that moment, in that shop. Where did you go? "Nowhere." What did you have to eat? "Nothing much." Even if you don't know what you want, buy _something,_ to be part of the exchanging flow. Start a huge, foolish project, like Noah. It makes absolutely no difference what people think of you...I love being intimate. Relaxing with, eating with, talking with, drinking with, lying down with cuddling, feeling, smelling, listening to, touching, MINDING, massaging, licking, sucking, fucking, dominating, making him feel, making him feel sacred, as we escape into a world that must be very close to heaven. And that's why sex is sacred, because when you experience g(0)d sex you begin to have an understanding of life. It creates a balance. It puts everything into perspective. Seb Cox/Rumi

Jockstrap / fucks me while she smokes a cigar / five times a week